I spent some time with my ministry team discussing the direction men's ministry is heading, and where we've been, and what obstacles are in our way, and what we can or can't do about them, and was reassured by their commitment, thoughts, frustrations and desire to see the same changes that we've been envisioning for nearly 2 years.
I got to spend some more time with Will a few days later, chewing on some of the same things we typically talk about. Children and raising them not to be animals, the role of community in the church, weird 5 stones specific things, our upcoming Marriage Camp, etc.
I also got to spend some time with Jesus and my wife. Tonight, I made these absolutely wicked portobello mushroom caps, with garlic, goat cheese and balsamic vinegar, grilled veggies and STEAK, had a Lucky U IPA, and simply spent the evening on my porch with my wife. She likes me just as much as I like her and always says the most loving things when we have little nights like this.
All of these things are so exciting! I continue to realize how blessed I am. How fortunate I am that God decided to bless me with all of these resources, skills, gifts, etc.
<cue rooster crowing>
A week like this forces my hand. I can either sit back, receive the compliments, enjoy the peace and love, fall deeper and deeper in love with the vision the Holy Spirit is giving me for my life, hang my hat on all the things that could be, or, I can DO something. This isn't to say that I've done nothing, because I have. What I'm saying is that I tend to choose option A. I like vision and I love compliments and peace and possibilities. I like coming up with ideas and strategies, and even have success implementing them. But I realized this week, that much of what I, and others are excited about is stuff that lies ahead. It's making those things happen that brings excitement. When we look at the vision for Men's Ministry as a place and time when men are integrated into the lives of other men in their finances, marriages, families, jobs etc.; where old men seek out young men to train them to live like Christ, and young men run to old men to say, "hey, you seem to have this figured out, teach me," it is that reality that excites me. Not the idea of it. The idea of being QB for the Browns is exciting, the reality is terrifying. There is a difference between ideas and realities, and it isn't the idea that excites me.